1 April 2001

It was that letter that I received from Mom that made me realize how stupid and guilty I was all this time. It was partly written on the phone bills that clearly shows the cost of all my calls to Rose not so long ago. And that was enough to make me realize what an idiot I was. Blaming Rose is out of the question. I only have myself to blame. After this, no more unnecessary spending and phone calls. I want to save up for the future. It is not a pleasant experience like the one I'm having right now. Completely broke that I had to beg for money from Mom. And for that story in Larkin, I'll leave it for later. Just thinking about that made me all sad.