11 June 2000

I finally started seeing H in class again. But the expression she gave me everytime it's like I killed her favorite cat or something. Wonder what I have done to deserve this. Maybe that's it. I have not done enough. I was not good enough. Once I rode past her really fast and close I bet she jumped out of her skin with fright. She'll probably hate me more after this. Well. I promise I won't do it again.

Everybody was at home tonight doing nothing much except lazing around, playing games and generally wasting their time. Suddenly the boys were calling my name asking if I dared to race my newly modified up bike at the highway up front. Thinking maybe my bike is up for the task, I quickly agreed. This is the time I'll test my new exhaust. So at the beginning of the race my heart was beating like crazy and my legs were literally shaking. But there's no turning back now. It's the highway or bust. And the race begin. My bike was never that quick really. I was constantly either 2nd or last with the other 2 way up front. In the end my bike gave up on me and stalled halfway through the race. Yep I have gloriously damaged my engine. To call me a complete idiot would be the understatement of the year.

Later that night I sat in my room sad and remorseful thinking of my broken bike. Zetty Nadia this new girl I've been texting me tried to console me with her kind words. Although I barely know her and I haven't even seen her face somehow I felt quite connected to her. Maybe this is a start of a beautiful relationship, maybe I'm just kidding myself haw haw. But one thing for sure, tomorrow my wallet and bank account will be considerably lighter thanks to my stupidity. My engine will need at least an overhaul no doubt about it.